withdrawal….

11 Apr
2006

i normally think of myself as an emotionally strong person. yes…i am emotional…no doubt…! but then emotions have rarely influenced the way i behave…in a negative manner…or in a manner that is ‘not me’…

but not this time. something as gotten over me…! i just cant stop missing isb…i just cant get myself together. everyone back at delhi is questioning me…”what the hell is wrong with you”…and i hv no reply…! i really dont.

its surely not ISB per se….i know its the people…! i am missing the girls…i am missing the marketing guys…i am missing being in my room and being knocked at on the window…am missing listening to my music with the dimlight on…am missing the late night coversations with E…and the tickling of S…and the pranks with P…and teasing B on everything under the sun…

god….withdrawal sucks…!

the last night was torture. S’s parents…the girls…me and my parents had gone to paradise for dinner. came back arnd 10ish…picked up A on the way….and were hanging out at E’s place while she packed. remembering all that happened the past one yr…! it was depressing…! i just cudnt get myself to smile…! i cudnt get myself to feel ecited abt anything tht lay ahead of me. its was jst god damn depressing…

then we went for a brief walk to the pool…came back even more depressed. the flight was at 4.30…and it was 2.30 already. so G and S went to sleep. E and i went to my room…for the ‘last supper’…! i went abt my usual gyan…do this in dubai…dont do this…etc etc. and yah…while saying all tht…i had tears…! she cudnt stop herself as well…! it was agonizing..! i never thought i wud be feeling like this for someone…if one had asked me a yr back. the only thing worse…though far far worse…was talking to R the 1st night i spent alone at MSU. i remember what a vacuum i had felt tht time….and this last night at ISb reminded me of that…!

unfortunately…due to our delayed arrival at te airport…i didnt get a chance for a proper closure with E. and what sucks is that we wont meet again….for a yr now. i am meeting everyone else for the orientation…but she isnt coming.

anyways….life moves on…is what they say. and i wud believe them. an awesome yr of my life has come to an end…and i cant thank got enough for it. it was much much more than i ever thought it cud be….in more ways that anyone can ever imagine…

withdrawal sucks…

~a

11 Responses to withdrawal….

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Anonymous

April 11th, 2006 at 11:44 pm

love u bubblyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy;)

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educatedunemployed

April 12th, 2006 at 11:30 pm

Warikooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..what is with you???I know reality seems to scream the obvious, but hullo..I think you should revel in the wonderful people that you have met and ever lasting friendships that you have made rather than let a few (gazzillion) miles hamper the essence of ISB/of life.Its not like life is over now,or friendships are going to dwindle.Cheer up.

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ankur

April 13th, 2006 at 12:43 pm

i know MG…maybe its jst the first few days…! and then life shall get the better off me..! :)

whats up with u nowadays…?

~a

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Kapil

April 14th, 2006 at 2:24 am

dude !!life goes on…ul meet newer ppl and make newer friends .Ppl will come and go and some would stick on..For better or worse ,this is the beauty of life :)
Cheer up !! Am in Delhi 4 yaa till 08 batch of ISB gets in .thn u can console me with the same lines whn i whine bout the wrkload or ltr bout missin ppl .

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Ram

April 15th, 2006 at 3:37 am

Waaaaaaaaaaarrrrrriiiiikkkkkooooooooo,

Just come over here … we are all chilling out !!!!!!

Ram

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educatedunemployed

April 19th, 2006 at 5:20 am

Ok enough now,kahan hain aap?..Whats up with you???..and please single ‘l’ in my name…:p

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Chanakya

April 21st, 2006 at 11:52 pm

Welcome back to the real world (Do I sound like Morpheaus?);)

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Zufikar

May 17th, 2006 at 12:52 pm

love readin your blog and about isb..i am from 2005 batch and I am still going through withdrawl symptoms…
its amazing the sort of bond u build within that institution….

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Anonymous

February 3rd, 2007 at 2:55 am

Very nice site! »

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Anonymous

March 6th, 2007 at 9:55 pm

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Atif

June 27th, 2008 at 1:20 am

Hey, where are you nowadays?? I think the site was a new shaadi shadi its free just for everyone here.

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